So I'm sitting here, almost finished with my degree that I set out forever and a day ago to finish. When I started, I was incapacitated because of a knee injury that forced me to have surgery and could barely get around. I went to my first classes on crutches. I had lost about everything that I owned and was living at home with my parents. I had no idea if I would ever finish but it seems like I'm actually going to finish. I have to say without a doubt, the time that has elapsed since that day I started going back has been absolute hell. The stress and anxiety from all the money problems, family problems and the entire debacle of going to Oklahoma State that almost ended everything for me has definitely taken it's toll. I live pretty much in a shitty situation, with pretty shitty people because I moved to a big city with not a lot of money while trying to make it through school.
I realize now how lucky I was before I lost my job. I had no money problems, plenty of friends to hang out with and a really nice place to live. I gave all of that up to sacrifice for something that I hope now will change my life in a much more positive way. I've learned and grown, become a much stronger and self sufficient person than I was before. I unfortunately have found that most people never learn how to really survive on their own. In the time I have lived in Charlotte, I have basically been forced to live with people who never had much success in life. They are bitter, small and petty people who cannot even understand what it is like to really work for something. I hate the fact that I have to be around these 'poisonous' people who have nothing but resentment for the world around them because they lack the sufficient drive and intelligence to live a life that is more than working a menial job that just barely covers the cost of breathing.
I hope that I can survive the next few months and get away from these people and start my life over. I just want to know what it is like to come home and actually be able to relax without dealing without someone else's childish bullshit. It is unfortunate that so many people that consider themselves adults can't seem to deal with their own problems.
Things will be better soon. I know they will because I have worked for too long to get to this point and no one is going to hold be back no matter how hard they try. I just can't wait for this semester to be over with, get my degree and move on. It'll be here soon I know it.
I realize now how lucky I was before I lost my job. I had no money problems, plenty of friends to hang out with and a really nice place to live. I gave all of that up to sacrifice for something that I hope now will change my life in a much more positive way. I've learned and grown, become a much stronger and self sufficient person than I was before. I unfortunately have found that most people never learn how to really survive on their own. In the time I have lived in Charlotte, I have basically been forced to live with people who never had much success in life. They are bitter, small and petty people who cannot even understand what it is like to really work for something. I hate the fact that I have to be around these 'poisonous' people who have nothing but resentment for the world around them because they lack the sufficient drive and intelligence to live a life that is more than working a menial job that just barely covers the cost of breathing.
I hope that I can survive the next few months and get away from these people and start my life over. I just want to know what it is like to come home and actually be able to relax without dealing without someone else's childish bullshit. It is unfortunate that so many people that consider themselves adults can't seem to deal with their own problems.
Things will be better soon. I know they will because I have worked for too long to get to this point and no one is going to hold be back no matter how hard they try. I just can't wait for this semester to be over with, get my degree and move on. It'll be here soon I know it.
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