Apple Sauce is Great for Cottonmouth

When growing up as a young kid I remember every year we would make the journey to my Grandparent's house in Virginia. We would ride in the old station wagon for days to get there, it was pretty uncomfortable with all six of us piled in that old car. I can still remember how excited I would be to finally pull into their driveway, it was pretty much the only time of the year I got to see my Grandparents. Their house was always neat and clean and I remember being somewhat scared and excited at the same time, we always had to be on our best behavior while we stayed there. These were the only times I had to really get to know my Grandmother and Grandfather. We lived so far away that they were never part of my day to day life, and I always wanted to know more about them. Sometimes I wondered how often they thought about me, because I always thought about them. I thought about how much they cared about me, if I was as important to them as they were to me, and how I always wanted to grow u...

This blog is something that I wish I would start to update more, when it comes to doing anything that requires my brain to operate at capacity I usually try to use that energy to get some schoolwork done. Summer is over, fall is in full swing, and pretty soon it will be pretty damn cold outside. I have always liked the changing of summer to fall, even though I am in love with summertime and hate when it is over. Things have been up in the air in a lot of places, but I have been trying hard to keep a positive outlook lately. I now know that I cannot bear the weight of the world on my shoulders alone, and that I have to focus on things that make me happy and not let how shitty things can be make me feel horrible anymore. I have cut back even more on drinking, which really makes me feel really good. I can actually function completely normally at this point when I'm stoned, which is the only thing really that calms me enough to think clearly when I am upset. This also helps me relax wh...

I wonder sometimes if I am a virtuous person. We have been speaking about virtue in my World Literature course. From what I understand, just because no one has ever done anything wrong does NOT mean they are a virtuous person. Virtue comes from the will to do good, whether or not it is perceived to be good at all. We just read about Socrates and his apology and how he refuses to admit to ever have committing the acts of corrupting the youth. He understands that being wise and pursuing truth unfortunately will land you in hot water, I also understand this. Truth stings, truth hurts and truth destroys people. The reason this bothers me is because I am constantly told that I am negative and that a lot of people don't like the things that I say. I have never felt that I am particularly negative, when in fact I pursue the truth even though I never really realized it consciously until recently. I also looked for a way to put this into words and now I even have a concrete example to expla...

I have not spent much time writing here. I know that I want to, but I'm usually too fuckin tired to really think about anything that has some substance. The fall semester starts next week so I know I will have even less time to put some thoughts together and nail them out on the blog. But I have also thought about the fact that for the most part, this blog is completely anonymous and no one reads it anyway so I feel it is a good opportunity to really just say whatever the fuck I feel. For instance, I'm sitting here drinking a cup of coffee, while completely stoned. I normally would not talk about drug related issues here because I didn't know who was aware that I had this blog and no one I have asked has said that they actually read it. I usually get high at least once a day, sometimes more sometimes less, depends usually on how much spare time I have. Since I have gotten older I have found that more intelligent people seem to like weed. I have no problem with drinking but ...

I'm pretty pissed. I am starting to get really fucking irritated that so many people make the claim that the United States is the greatest country in the world. Unfortunately I'm coming to the conclusion that before too long our country is going to collapse under the weight of the monumentally moronic decisions made every day by politicians, businessmen and the like that are sucking the life out of each and every citizen. They've taken our rights in the name of safety, our jobs in the name of profit, pensions for pure greed, and continues to fund the bombing of other countries while imprisoning non-violent citizens at exponential rates. I'm currently unemployed and guess what? I got denied for financial aid to continue going to college while I'm out of work because I apparently made too much money, WHILE I DIDN'T HAVE A FUCKIN JOB. Our Government can bail out Wall Street, major auto companies that blow our tax payer dollars on vacations, yachts and frivolous bul...

Not much to speak of as of late, except continuing to work my ass off to keep up with all my schoolwork. Started watching "The Pacific" which is an awesome follow up to "Band of Brothers". Really cool that I'm actually learning a lot about WWII at the same time in history class and that the show is pretty accurate. BJJ has been coming along well, been working on some improvements in certain parts of my game and taking in a lot of advice from my classmates. Still haven't made it to many Judo practices because I am still concerned at how well my knee would take getting thrown around. The knee is at about 90%, so I have most of my mobility back and the pain is starting to finally subside even though I still have problems going up and down stairs, nothing major. No time to talk politics. Wish I could because there is a lot to talk about now, it'll just have to wait.

Once again I find the acts of hate perpetrated by people obviously outraged at health care reform in our country to be completely irrational outbursts. Bricks thrown through windows, death threats, spitting in people's faces. These are the reactions from the same people that claim that we have to fight tooth and nail against terrorism. The same people that declare that progressivism is the cancer eating away at America. I could get very in depth with this but for me it really only steers me further and further away from ever considering changing parties. I always assume that someone else has a deeper understanding of the world around me and willing to hear people from the other side of the fence. It is just too common for these types of people and their hypocritical ways and how it always becomes more and more apparent that they do not live by their own words. When you employ the same tactics as terrorists, you don't hold much water.

Keeping up with my training weeks, so far on week one I have still been taking it a little easy, gonna ramp things up before too long. The knee is still sore as hell and I have a hard time going up and down steps but I have decided that I'm going to have to just keep pushing it. Yesterday I had practice and rolled with some pretty tough guys at the noon class. No weightlifting. Today I'm studying most of the day and trying to get a little in head of the curve, even though I will probably try to get a lot of work done over spring break next week. The class at noon is rough, only a couple of white belts there, there is only one other guy there that is my size. Tough time fighting them off and mostly fought off my back, which I think is going to improve my bottom game because I cannot do much to get on top because positioning is tough with my knee still lacking range of movement. I'm going to try to get weightlifting in each and everyday. I've taken some time off from hang...

I recently completed the chapters in history on the progressive era and the problems facing the United States after the Great Depression. I for the life of me, cannot understand the monumental problems we have now and how they are so closely related to the same problems our nation faced during the progressive era and why none of these same solutions can be applied in our current situation. I don't think that big government is going to fix much, even though it is supposed to be the one check we have in the system that is supposed to protect us from huge corporations who will stop at nothing to make a profit. This doesn't matter if their decisions destroy lives, the environment or the economy itself. Republicans believe that the government has no right to interfere with business and commerce which in an ideal world would work, it just so happens that greed tends to come between business's and how they make their decisions. Unfortunately ethics has no variable when it comes to...

I have been at the library all afternoon, went to my Engineering Graphics class and just got done taking an online test that took me over an hour. My eyes feel dry as shit and I gotta be back up for class early tomorrow. Glad I don't have shit else to do.

So I have been hard at work, going back to Jiu Jitsu and working on getting my knee back in shape to get back to Judo practice by the next month or two. I have also drastically cut back how much I have been drinking and keeping up with schoolwork. I completely forgot how much I loved going to school, I hated it when I was younger but I have come to appreciate it much more than ever. I always thought it was useless and boring but have come to the realization that you don't really start to learn shit until you get into college. Everything they teach you prior to that is usually watered down and sometimes utterly wrong. I have really noticed since I am taking American history and American government classes that what you learned about in school concerning the development of our country are mostly romanticized versions of what actually happened. I'm also learning a lot about how economics and industry have such an enormous impact on society. How things changed after the Industrial ...

So we are living in a world of the digital excess. There will be no more art before too long, as the digital realm will saturate our senses with an exponential amount of useless bullshit. This will happen to the extent that anything worth experiencing will be impossible to find.

So I'm back in college, knee surgery went well and now I'm starting to get a lot of my movement back so I'm pretty fuckin stoked. This year is going to be a lot different, I'm not drinking as much and I have just been focused on what I need to get done for my classes. The toughest part of school now is keeping up with all the shit they put online for your schoolwork. Schools and colleges are trying to save money by getting rid of all the books and forcing everyone to do all their coursework on the computer. It's confusing to say the least, because the software developers fucking suck at organizing online courses in a somewhat logical and coherent way. Costs the students money for computers and the colleges less for all the paper they don't have to use as well. Way to shift the cost of education back onto the broke ass college students like myself. It is also interesting to be around kids that are just getting out of high school and you can just look at them and ...