Apple Sauce is Great for Cottonmouth

So for the last four to five months the entire world has now fallen victim to a global pandemic. I think at first I really didn't believe that it would become something so serious. I was initially sent home to work remotely, which I really liked but I've had to become very isolated, even more so since I now have been furloughed at my job. I don't know if I will get recalled or not. A lot of businesses have shut down and a lot of the 'experts' are saying that there is going to be a total economic catastrophe that is apparently going to affect everyone in this country and obviously, the world. Once again the Republican establishment in this country, who controls the presidency and the senate have basically refused to admit that there is really even a problem. Last time I checked about 140,00 Americans have died. One hundred and forty fucking thousand. I can't even believe it when I say it out loud. Trump has gaffed this in every way possible, blaming the democrats...

Here we go again. I graduated from college once, got a job did okay for a while, economy collapses lose my job and I end up going back to college to get another degree. I graduate from college, get a job, do fairly okay for a while, global pandemic, civil unrest, inept president, economy collapses. Basically lose job. What in the fuck is actually happening? For starters, I feel like I have made some really dumb mistakes in life. I know I did not do things the way that most expect after high school. I hated the thought of being just like everyone else. I had really high hopes for myself. I guess everyone starts out life this way, thinking that they are always just on the cusp of greatness and that they just need their big break. I had no intentions of ever going to college, ever getting a degree or being what I just thought was a sucker. Just like when I saw 'A Bronx Tale', I felt that working people were idiots. Breaking your back for some boss that doesn't give a shit abou...

Today I have a day off of work. I have been sick for the last few days and have been in my most recent apartment for almost three days. It is amazing how sometimes even just one day off can do so much to 'catch' up on what you always put off when you are constantly working. It is hard to believe that it has been almost three years already since I graduated, again. Is my life where I thought it would be? Am I already thinking seriously about retirement? I'm still not married and don't have any kids. I think in some ways going to school for so long I got to be really isolated and maybe I actually like it that way. I grew up in  a house with three sisters and things were usually pretty cramped. My younger two sisters almost always had to share a room. I think we struggled a lot as a family growing up, we didn't have much to get by on but usually we did. I did have some sort of feeling that my parents could always pull through, even when things were really bad. Either w...