Apple Sauce is Great for Cottonmouth

So I finished college, again. I went through almost everything that I thought I would and then some. It's been a few months and I really felt like I needed a break from everything for a while and now things are starting to settle down enough to the point that I can get back to spending a little time here and there updating this blog. I started this a long time ago just because I felt like putting my words down somewhere I could go back and look at it and feel like I can see the progress I've made. At the time when I started writing on this blog I was working at a job I hated and really felt like I was selling myself really short and I needed to get my engineering degree in order to see my full potential. That was almost ten years ago. Like everyone else, I ask myself, where did the time go? I wanted to go to school to become an aerospace engineer in order to make some part of me and the family that is still alive see me as someone that could compare to my grandfather. I k...

I have had the flu the last few weeks so I have been mainly working from home. I have some big things going on with my senior project in the next week so things will be pretty busy. In spite of this I have had a lot of time to sort through my thoughts and start getting ready to move out of where I'm living and have everything in place for when I'm done with my degree. As I've stated already, I'm really glad this is happening and it will bring a long, crazy chapter of my life to a close. I guess the one thing that surprises me the most is how I had to make such huge sacrifices and force myself to commit to something that I didn't even really think I could do. Now that it is almost over I look back and feel that sometimes it really wasn't that bad. Could I do it over again? I'm not really sure. If I knew what I know now, I probably could have done it a lot quicker and easier but there was no way for me to really know what I was in for. I didn't know I wo...

So I'm sitting here, almost finished with my degree that I set out forever and a day ago to finish. When I started, I was incapacitated because of a knee injury that forced me to have surgery and could barely get around. I went to my first classes on crutches. I had lost about everything that I owned and was living at home with my parents. I had no idea if I would ever finish but it seems like I'm actually going to finish. I have to say without a doubt, the time that has elapsed since that day I started going back has been absolute hell. The stress and anxiety from all the money problems, family problems and the entire debacle of going to Oklahoma State that almost ended everything for me has definitely taken it's toll. I live pretty much in a shitty situation, with pretty shitty people because I moved to a big city with not a lot of money while trying to make it through school. I realize now how lucky I was before I lost my job. I had no money problems, plenty of friends ...