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final preparations

I have had the flu the last few weeks so I have been mainly working from home. I have some big things going on with my senior project in the next week so things will be pretty busy. In spite of this I have had a lot of time to sort through my thoughts and start getting ready to move out of where I'm living and have everything in place for when I'm done with my degree. As I've stated already, I'm really glad this is happening and it will bring a long, crazy chapter of my life to a close.

I guess the one thing that surprises me the most is how I had to make such huge sacrifices and force myself to commit to something that I didn't even really think I could do. Now that it is almost over I look back and feel that sometimes it really wasn't that bad. Could I do it over again? I'm not really sure. If I knew what I know now, I probably could have done it a lot quicker and easier but there was no way for me to really know what I was in for. I didn't know I would have to go multiple days without any sleep, or that I would fight with everyone around me so that I could get my work done. There were a few times I was working multiple jobs while going to class full time and swear I was so exhausted I could have died. I'm hoping that I'll get to live in that picturesque place I've always dreamed about, somewhere I feel content and can relax without the stress I've been under for the last few years.

There is also a lot going on in the world and when I started this blog it was mainly to give myself an outlet for the anger I felt at the people and government of this country. Things seems to get a lot better with president Obama but now with Trump getting elected, all the progress won't likely just get reversed but pushed back to pre-civil rights movement level ignorance and stupidity. Trump does nothing but feed people's fears. He is the most immoral and repugnant human being I think our country has ever allowed to hold public office and will most likely ruin and divide this country in ways that would take years to rebuild. This person literally makes me want to gag when I look at him and I hope that the protests against him never stop until he gets kicked out of office.

Our country is a parody, a joke to other civilized countries. He's literally turning our country into an embarrassing example of what we used to be. God help us now.

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