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bearing the soul

I have not spent much time writing here. I know that I want to, but I'm usually too fuckin tired to really think about anything that has some substance. The fall semester starts next week so I know I will have even less time to put some thoughts together and nail them out on the blog. But I have also thought about the fact that for the most part, this blog is completely anonymous and no one reads it anyway so I feel it is a good opportunity to really just say whatever the fuck I feel. For instance, I'm sitting here drinking a cup of coffee, while completely stoned.

I normally would not talk about drug related issues here because I didn't know who was aware that I had this blog and no one I have asked has said that they actually read it. I usually get high at least once a day, sometimes more sometimes less, depends usually on how much spare time I have. Since I have gotten older I have found that more intelligent people seem to like weed. I have no problem with drinking but the most interesting people I meet usually like weed, it is definitely more cerebral than alcohol. A drug that actually promotes thought is coincidentally illegal in this country. Prohibition has already been proven to not work, the demand will always be to great for any institution to really ever control. Humans are going to do what they like, which usually is fucking, fighting, and getting fucked up, not necessarily in that order.

I'll try to make this a bit more interesting since I know I can really just let things out without worrying what anyone thinks. Anyway, nose to the grindstone for the time being, over and out.

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