So I manage to get to this blog on really sporadic rate right now. Mostly because I used to write this blog because it was one of the ways that I fought off the boredom of having a job I couldn't stand and wasn't really taking me anywhere in life. I've come a long way from there and sometimes I want to stop and think about what I went through and how now I am a much stronger person than I was before.
I constantly try to make each day count now, I see even more horrific things on the news everyday and it makes me feel that I'm really lucky that I am pretty well insulated from it. I wonder what it would be like if I wasn't and I was stuck in some place where barbaric things are commonplace. More and more each day I feel like every second I have is a gift and that I should not squander it away doing mundane bullshit that doesn't push me any closer to my goals. I've learned to be much more productive, even though I still have a ways to go when it comes to controlling my temper sometimes. I know that it is only human to get upset every once in a while but my anger definitely flares more than it should.
I still have about a month of this summer still left and I got a lot I still want to do, even though this past year has been pretty incredible. I got to go to Alabama and see our university rocketry team launch at a NASA competition and made a lot of good friends while I was there. It from start to finish was a pretty awesome experience and I am really glad that I ended up being a part of it. I'm working pretty hard at getting my engineering degree complete and I have only one full year left and then I will be done. It is crazy to think that I made the decision after I lost my job that I was not going to wind up in the same place again, unhappy, miserable and wishing that I had made different choices in life. I feel like the regrets that I have in life are starting to finally disappear. I was always angry that so many other people I knew finished college and went on to have actual careers, not just jobs that force them to live check to check. I've also made some good impressions on my professors and have actually gotten to do some things other students have not and am currently holding down a pretty good internship where I am learning a lot. I really do like the fact that I get a lot more respect from people now and am recognized a lot more for the work that I do. It is a very good feeling.
I feel a lot happier now than I have ever been, with the exception that I haven't dated anyone seriously in over a year now. When you fall into a dry spell, it tends to stay that way for a while. I feel like I pigeon holed in a way because I am too old for the girls I meet at school but still look like I am their age. I don't really find most women my age attractive because to be completely honest and it is because most of them who have made it this far are may have been good looking at one point in their life but their looks have faded, or were never there to begin with. Finding hot 36 year old females is a pretty daunting if not futile, endeavor. I also like the vitality of younger women and the fact that they usually don't feel so much pressure to fill the typical social norms.
I am learning slowly to never give up. It's going good so far.
I constantly try to make each day count now, I see even more horrific things on the news everyday and it makes me feel that I'm really lucky that I am pretty well insulated from it. I wonder what it would be like if I wasn't and I was stuck in some place where barbaric things are commonplace. More and more each day I feel like every second I have is a gift and that I should not squander it away doing mundane bullshit that doesn't push me any closer to my goals. I've learned to be much more productive, even though I still have a ways to go when it comes to controlling my temper sometimes. I know that it is only human to get upset every once in a while but my anger definitely flares more than it should.
I still have about a month of this summer still left and I got a lot I still want to do, even though this past year has been pretty incredible. I got to go to Alabama and see our university rocketry team launch at a NASA competition and made a lot of good friends while I was there. It from start to finish was a pretty awesome experience and I am really glad that I ended up being a part of it. I'm working pretty hard at getting my engineering degree complete and I have only one full year left and then I will be done. It is crazy to think that I made the decision after I lost my job that I was not going to wind up in the same place again, unhappy, miserable and wishing that I had made different choices in life. I feel like the regrets that I have in life are starting to finally disappear. I was always angry that so many other people I knew finished college and went on to have actual careers, not just jobs that force them to live check to check. I've also made some good impressions on my professors and have actually gotten to do some things other students have not and am currently holding down a pretty good internship where I am learning a lot. I really do like the fact that I get a lot more respect from people now and am recognized a lot more for the work that I do. It is a very good feeling.
I feel a lot happier now than I have ever been, with the exception that I haven't dated anyone seriously in over a year now. When you fall into a dry spell, it tends to stay that way for a while. I feel like I pigeon holed in a way because I am too old for the girls I meet at school but still look like I am their age. I don't really find most women my age attractive because to be completely honest and it is because most of them who have made it this far are may have been good looking at one point in their life but their looks have faded, or were never there to begin with. Finding hot 36 year old females is a pretty daunting if not futile, endeavor. I also like the vitality of younger women and the fact that they usually don't feel so much pressure to fill the typical social norms.
I am learning slowly to never give up. It's going good so far.
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