So I had my operation. I had to have a few appointments with the orthopedist to have x-rays and and examination of the knee as well as have a MRI to see exactly what damage had been done. Torn meniscus in my right knee and had to have arthroscopic surgery to repair the torn cartilage. I went in to the hospital a little over a week and a half ago to have the procedure done. I have been in quite a bit of pain so I did not really feel like writing about the nausea, headaches, swelling, loss of movement and general pain in my knee associated with the recovery process. Because of this I have spent a lot of time watching a lot of movies and TV. I have lived a somewhat isolated life the past few weeks because of my inability to move or drive myself anywhere so I have had to delve my brain into the sewage that is produced by TV networks. I normally don't really ever watch TV because I'm usually too busy and to say I am shocked at what I see is an understatement. Depending on the programming you are watching and what channel it is on, and also what station you are watching it is somewhat interesting to see what demographic is being targeted when it comes to the never ending barrage commercials, product placements and advertisements for an array of useless products and services.
On one occasion I was watching a television show called Hoarders that documents the lives of people that have a compulsion to never throw anything away and live in the heaps of garbage that accumulate in their homes, apartments or other dwellings. What surprised me were the commercials placed in between segments for Target, Walmart and other such retail mega-giants that promote people to buy, buy, buy. Is it not interesting to watch people who desperately want to break away from their mental illness that does not allow them to discard anything in their lives because they fear that in some way shape or form they are losing a part of themselves only to be told during commercial breaks to fill the voids of our lives with cheap clothing, housewares and other assorted electronic and other material belongings? We have to believe that our lives do not revolve around things material and that the material belongings we possses do not control us and our lives should not revolve around what we have, and what we do not have.
Our global economy is falling apart, I still cannot find a job, placing me with the millions of other people around our country who are only now beginning to realize that this recession should really be called a catharsis for our society that is plagued with people living beyond their means and living only with the hopes of buying that new house or that new car, perpetually chasing things that in the end are only going to accelerate their feelings of despair and uselessness.
Snapping back to my current situation, I am learning to live without the use of my leg. I cannot walk without crutches and I find myself needing the help of others constantly just to feed myself and go about my daily routines. I am feeling better and know that even though the thought of paying off the bills from my surgery are probably going to take me a few decades, I am remaining optimistic. I am going to make a comback, and when I do I am going to have even more focus than ever before. I think that myself and the rest of the world need to look at hard times and stare it in the face and come to the realization that sometimes the world just needs to put us all back in check by taking some things away that we don't really need. As always, I'm going to keep looking straight ahead and I'm not too afraid to do so.
On one occasion I was watching a television show called Hoarders that documents the lives of people that have a compulsion to never throw anything away and live in the heaps of garbage that accumulate in their homes, apartments or other dwellings. What surprised me were the commercials placed in between segments for Target, Walmart and other such retail mega-giants that promote people to buy, buy, buy. Is it not interesting to watch people who desperately want to break away from their mental illness that does not allow them to discard anything in their lives because they fear that in some way shape or form they are losing a part of themselves only to be told during commercial breaks to fill the voids of our lives with cheap clothing, housewares and other assorted electronic and other material belongings? We have to believe that our lives do not revolve around things material and that the material belongings we possses do not control us and our lives should not revolve around what we have, and what we do not have.
Our global economy is falling apart, I still cannot find a job, placing me with the millions of other people around our country who are only now beginning to realize that this recession should really be called a catharsis for our society that is plagued with people living beyond their means and living only with the hopes of buying that new house or that new car, perpetually chasing things that in the end are only going to accelerate their feelings of despair and uselessness.
Snapping back to my current situation, I am learning to live without the use of my leg. I cannot walk without crutches and I find myself needing the help of others constantly just to feed myself and go about my daily routines. I am feeling better and know that even though the thought of paying off the bills from my surgery are probably going to take me a few decades, I am remaining optimistic. I am going to make a comback, and when I do I am going to have even more focus than ever before. I think that myself and the rest of the world need to look at hard times and stare it in the face and come to the realization that sometimes the world just needs to put us all back in check by taking some things away that we don't really need. As always, I'm going to keep looking straight ahead and I'm not too afraid to do so.
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