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So I got laid off. It's been about three weeks and I have taken a lot of time off from everything. I was actually pretty relieved when it happened because I was really starting to hate my job. Mangement sucked, no incentive whatsoever to do a good job and the company I worked for (one of the biggest computer conglomerates in the world) basically doesn't give a shit about their employees. The whole company was basically a big clusterfuck of blowhards. It amazes me that they are able to accomplish anything with how bad communication is within the company and how unorganized their people are. Not to mention the product I was working on before I left which was supposed to generate billions of dollars for the company was an utter complete piece of shit. I can't go into specifics but I can say that it was plagued with intermittent problems and they tried to implement too many bells and whistles which were designed to make the customers swoon. Unfortunately none of their features they are advertising that are supposed to be cutting edge and separate them from their competition even work. It basically would be like buying a car that only starts maybe half the time, has a broken speedometer and dies when you need it to run. So yeah, fuck 'em. I could give a shit less and hope they lose a fuckload of money on the piece of crap they are going to attempt to sell to whoever is dumb enough to actually consider buying it.

I am however in the process of trying to go back to college but I'm not sure if that is going to actually happen or not. I applied for unemployment as soon as I lost my job but have yet to get a single cent which is making my financial situation pretty dire at this point. My savings is almost gone and I have no more money coming in. It is starting to get to the point where I am getting really worried about how I am going to take care of things. I did the math and the unemployment I qualify for now leaves enough money at the end of the month to fill my gas tank once and there is nothing left over. I know there are millions other like me and it does nothing but really anger me to see that so little is being done to help the shitty situation so many other people are in right now. Obama made a lot of promises but we all need something to be done and we fucking need it done now. It is pretty nauseating to think that so much money was dumped into Iraq and fighting a war that was started on bullshit reasons. Bush is out of office and so are the neocons that were destroying our country and now we have to somehow find a way to collectively fix the country that is literally falling apart.

It is nice to actually spend some time being able to do things I never really ever get to do anymore. Reading, taking naps, visiting friends, catching up on things that need to be done that I have never had time to do is the only thing that I'm really happy about right now. I felt I never had time to take out some time for myself and relax a little bit. My job was really dragging down my spirits and I felt I really needed a change. I'll see how things go from here, the hard part is keeping my head up long enough to ride this shit out.

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