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Trimming the fat

So I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about the people that I know and associate myself with. I know that it can be hard for some people to do, but you have to stop and take a look at who is really your friend and who isn't. Bob Marley once said "Your best friend could be your worst enemy and your worst enemy your best friend". I am starting to come to the realization that most people that I really don't like are some of the people that I could possibly learn the most from. I have grown to accept the fact that I have faults and that I need people that point out those faults on a daily basis or I will never do anything to correct them. One of my best friends told me recently that I bitch too much. I bitch about traffic, the weather, or how pretty much nothing goes my way. So I am now having to deal with the fact that some people think I am a whiny bitch and that does not feel too good. But I think that it will only in the end make me a better person because I am forced now to deal with the realization that I have made that I yes, can be quite a whiny asshole at times and that I really don't have much in life that I should be complaining about. This is exactly what I accuse other people of doing all the time. So I have taken a hard look at most people that I know, and even some I call close friends, and have noticed that a lot of the people that I consider close friends quite frankly don't give a shit about me. Some of them I flat out just don't need in my life anymore. I have decided that I will no longer waste time on people that are not directly contributing to making my life better, or truly care about me as a person.

I will admit I have felt like I have been stuck in a rut for a quite lengthy period of time because of a lot of shit that has transpired over the past year that was pretty tough to deal with. But regardless, I should not care. There are people in this world that would do anything to have what I have. There are people that deal with shit way worse than mine and still somehow find it within themselves to face the world everyday. Some of these people do it all in stride with a shit eating grin on their face. I am going to strive to become one of those people. Tomorrow is a new day and from now on I'm just going to roll with the punches.

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. said…
"I have decided that I will no longer waste time on people that are not directly contributing to making my life better"

....lets go get high.
October 29, 2008 at 4:27 PM
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