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The hits just keep comin'

Haven't posted in a while, and I'm glad I didn't because I'm sure that no one wants to hear me bitch or whine about how this is possibly the worst year I have had in my entire life. We're only a little more than a third of the way through this wretched year, and I the only good thing that has happened so far is I have finally made the last payments on two of my student loans. I just broke a toe yesterday, and I can't stand on my right foot. This really sucks because I have been trying really hard to get back into shape this year. I have been living off protein shakes, bananas and water lately. I was determined to be able to see my abs again this year. Superficial as it is, I had it set as a goal so I could get my ass up everyday and go to the gym. I can't even walk anywhere right now without crutches, which blows because everyone I run into wants to know what the hell I did to myself. Blows my goddamn mind, like I intended to fuck up my own foot. I need to be outside now that it is warming up, but I can't run or work out. I'm gonna be out of Judo and Jiu Jitsu class for probably at least two to three weeks, which depresses me more than anything. I'm gonna have to find something to occupy myself with, which I have no idea what that is going to be since I am so used to my rigid routine I go through each week. Maybe I'm autistic, because I hate things being out of order. I can't stand when anything gets in the way of what I do, and when my whole shit gets tossed up. Oh well, maybe I'll deal smack out of my apartment to keep things interesting, you know meet exciting new people and make some coin while I'm at it.

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