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I made it

So I finished college, again.

I went through almost everything that I thought I would and then some.

It's been a few months and I really felt like I needed a break from everything for a while and now things are starting to settle down enough to the point that I can get back to spending a little time here and there updating this blog. I started this a long time ago just because I felt like putting my words down somewhere I could go back and look at it and feel like I can see the progress I've made. At the time when I started writing on this blog I was working at a job I hated and really felt like I was selling myself really short and I needed to get my engineering degree in order to see my full potential. That was almost ten years ago. Like everyone else, I ask myself, where did the time go?

I wanted to go to school to become an aerospace engineer in order to make some part of me and the family that is still alive see me as someone that could compare to my grandfather. I know now that while this was a very good motivator, over time I was missing out on the fact that I should have been doing it for the people that were right next to me the whole time. As I have probably described before I was pretty much stuck in bed when I decided that I was going to get my engineering degree no matter what and started down the path that led me to where I am today. I have a good job. I make pretty good money now. I am a design engineer for a company that I could stay with for the foreseeable future. I can do pretty much whatever I want, whenever I want. I can spend money on things others can't. I know that I can be stable and provide for a family and buy a house at some point if I need to. For once in my life I feel like I'm happy and it is almost surreal. I thought that I would always struggle through life no matter what and that no one would ever give me a chance to prove just how capable I am.

I wish I could see my grandfather and maybe sit next to him. I miss my grandparents a lot. I think they would be proud of me now. I may not be building rockets and sending people to outer space but who knows. I got a lot of time left on this earth. I'm a scientist now and will always be one.

Oh yeah. I managed to launch some rockets and do some interesting stuff that caught NASA's eye. I'll come back with more on that later.

N

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